its just about not giving up my brothers and sisters.

I'm gonna try and write very simple stuff on here my message is simple. Every Jew has their ups and downs those really in touch with their Neshama can experience its pain when doing wrong but at the same time the Gof/Yetzer Hora numbs that pain and silences your conscience so that its all ok at the time but afterwards it hurts as hell and yet you'll end up doing it again. The only way to defeat these impulsive urges and seductions of the Yetzer Hora is to build up fortifications against it when its not trying to entice you. You just have to go somewhere quite and hammer into yourself that i just wont allow myself to fall for that Tayva again. It doesn't matter whether your Chasidish, Litvish, Mizrachi, Sephardi, Jews for Jesus (not a very funny joke!), Chasidish-Sephadi, Lubavitch-Satmar-Mizrachi, or even Mizrachi-Charedi-Jews 4 Jesus (HaHahahaha...not) its very nice to talk about lofty aspirations and the higher realms and Mazolos but end of the day we are made up of two components pig and angel and most peoples' angel has been crushed under the split hooves of their snorting snivelling short-sighted dirty pig, its tough to realizes but the thing were most scared of, that's projection, I'M most scared of is the angel. What I'm scared of the angel?!! Yes and what i mean when i say that can be encapsulated with a quote from the film Coach Carter. I'm sure that Chazal and all our current and past Gedolim ,Masgichim and Rebeim have summed this idea up before much more succinctly but i hope you get the message from this quote, and i hope its Emes as well! "
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Sir I just wanna say thank you . . . You saved my life." - Timo Cruz played by actor Rick Gonzalez.
Let the angel free and those heights which appeared so giddy to you will be left far below you as you finally appreciate the strength Hashem has given you in those beating wings and you soar high above the mundane. have a good Pesach people, Ill be back!
p.s sorry about the grammer and punctuation, its terrible i know!